The Beginning...

of my blog! i wanted a place where I could be me. for now it's private, i mean, who'd want to read or follow it anyway right?! i basically wanted a journal and after many a journal lay around the house, one or two entries in each, i've decided to finally face reality where handwriting is no longer. Not in a world of computers and speed typing, where i can "write" down everything i want to say, and more, in less than a quarter of the time it'd take me to write down a thought in a paragraph.

this blog is for my son, my family. i have a horrible memory and am afraid that i will forget all the little things that make me so happy in this life, today. Lucas is already 3 months old and how fast i already seem to be forgetting, it's a tragedy. i'm convinced my mom dropped me on my head as a child, or something traumatic happened to me that i've buried deep within, something so bad that i can't even recall the basic of memories.

so, here i am... poor grammar and all, (after all, English was not my major in college, oh and lets not enough discuss math here ;) in private... for now.