It's my last day...

of maternity leave. i'm full of mixed emotions... yesterday i was completely giddy about the thought of going back to work (yeah, let me document this now because i'm sure in just a few short months, i'll be eating my words!). i think about how i'll be returning to an office that is closer to my home, more organized and not so full of desperate workers trying to float in a sinking ship (haha, a bit dramatic... or not!), and mostly, i'll be leaving my babies in really good hands. i've thought, too, that part of the excitement of going back to work is because i know one of us HAS to work, so might as well be me in a profession that i've spent so many years in college trying to secure, and too, i think about the wonders it'll work for our marriage.

i think the hubbs will have an opportunity to miss and appreciate me more, now, not that he doesn't appreciate me enough but you know.. absence makes the heart grow fonder. i look forward to the routine of it all; getting up every morning to start the day with somewhere to be. i don't know, call me crazy, i'm very optimistic that this will be a great next chapter in our life!

and then the guilt sets in.. of not only leaving my boys but being happy about returning to work! ok, i'm not happy about leaving my family, only embracing the fact that i must return to work. yeah, that's it! i'm so sad to miss out on 8.5 - 9 hours of their day, yet i'm excited to miss them (yes, call me crazy!). i'm excited about walking through the door every night, after a long (usually hard) day of work, and my baby boy, Luke, jumping in my arms, greeting me with hugs and kisses while telling me how much he loves me... i'm excited to hold my baby, Logan, and shower him with tons of kisses and look at him as if it's been forever since i've laid eyes on him... i'm excited to hug and kiss my husband, and tell him how much i've missed him and the kids, and then get to hear all that i've missed that day. i look forward to dinner time at the table, bath time with my boys and then somewhere in all of this, i'll have a small opportunity to document this time in our lives with photos.

i've painted the picture and this is how it will be... every single day! haha!

on a side note, i'm not anywhere near complete with all the projects i wanted to finish prior to returning to work. i'm completely backed up on blogging, editing and even uploading images from my memory card! lets not talk about the piles i haven't gone through, the baby books i haven't updated or the U2 photos from months and months ago that i've promised a friend but have yet to deliver on! tell me again, why do we need to sleep?!

we Baptized Logan this past weekend, on Saturday (at 2 months old - for me to remember) and i just now am uploading the images to my computer! i haven't culled through them yet but grabbed this one quickly to share (i can hear Logan waking now so need to hurry!).


i'll be back by the end of the weekend with a full post to share :) and yeah, side note, Logan is an EXCELLENT sleeper! he sleeps a good 7-8 hrs straight every night. He goes down about 10pm and wakes in between 5-6am, sometimes even 7! Luke's been sick so the past couple nights have be rough but usually, he's been a great sleeper as well. i can only pray it continues ♥